Fates Alignment.... How I Met Shamar...

I have been having mixed feelings about this day. The day when I would have to start writing about Shamar. Many are wondering who is Shamar and why is it so hard to write about him??? Shamar was the father of my child and fiance. Just the mere thought of him as I sit here, sends my stomach in a roll and that old familiar, bitter sweet ache starts within my heart and that ache will continue to grow until it reaches its crescendo and hot, burning tears will pour from my soul, through the outlets of my eyes. This chapter, which will be broken down some, for it is a lot to write and very emotionally taxing for me, will be the hardest to write. I have gathered my wits around me.... here it goes.

I remember the first time I met him as if it was just yesterday. I have always believed that the ones who mean the most to you, you tend to  remember the very first encounter, the first embrace, the magic of it all, no matter how much time has passed. It was a sunny autumn day in September. Patricia, Alleyene and I decided that we would talk a walk to the little shopping plaza just a few blocks away from the school. I remember that I didn't want to go, I was having a lazy day. However, they ended up dragging me. That is why I named this chapter fates alignment because I firmly believe that I was meant to met Shamar that day. Upon entering the plaza, we went to the Chinese restaurant to order some food. My eyes immediately fell on this  guy sitting in the corner eating what I assumed to be an egg roll, he later told me it was in fact a shrimp roll. He was well built, that I could see even in his sitting position, had braids, which at the time was the biggest turn on for me and the most captivating smile. Now, because I was used to men making the first move, I glanced at him, then went and sat with my friends, thinking that he would say something to me, he instead finished his roll, looked at me one last time and walked out the door! I was floored. Yes I realize that made me sound conceited but I assure you that I am far from being that, I have never had a guy show interest through stares but not do nothing. Anyway, My friends and I went into the Shoprite, the local grocery store to buy some odds and ends. Upon leaving the store, I encountered Shamar again. and he still didn't do anything! So, (a very first for me) I walked over and started a conversation with him under the ruse that my friend Patricia was interested in another cashier that was working in the store. He told me he had no idea who the guy was, he had just started working there and as I turned away he asked " but what about you though?"  " whats your name? are you from around here?" I told him I was from Brooklyn and that I was out here for school. He then asked for my ID. I laughed and showed him... and then he looked me in my eyes and said the words that would entwine our lives forever " so, can I give you a call sometime?" I eagerly gave him my number and in that instant, with out knowing it until further down the line, I wasn't only giving him my number, I was giving him my self as well.