Myspace, You tube, Facebook. Coming Into My Sexuality....

In my junior year of high school, I guess you can say one day I realized that I wasn't that bad looking. I stopped being afraid of my body and instead I started to embrace it. I remember the first time I posted a picture on line. It was like a rush to read the comments, to know that people found me attractive and wanted to get to know me, but most importantly it was exciting because my parents knew nothing about it. I immediately became addicted to the internet. I was on majority of the sites, name a site and most likely I was on it. I soon progressed from just taking pictures of my face to pictures of my body. Never naked pictures, I had enough sense to know not to do that, but all my pictures were sexy and very, very suggestive. I was in a period where I loved my body and I wanted to flaunt it. This was a far cry from the girl who used to double up on her bras to hid her breasts while growing up. My friends list grew bigger and bigger, mostly on Myspace. I had people who wanted me to model, people who wanted me to be in music videos, but I always declined because that just wasn't for me. Mostly though it was just people trying to get into my pants, and I could never blame them, my pictures were all about sex. I did however met a few people over the internet that are now very near and dear to me and I will be discussing them in an upcoming section. Then there was you tube. My time on there was very short lived, but I'm quite sure there are still some videos of my antics still out there. While many people might say that I was being thirsty and starving for attention, for me it was my way to defy my parents to control something, to do something that they weren't able to have a say in. Also it was somewhat a chain breaker for me, it freed me from the shackles of my childhood abuse, it made me love my self again, and not be ashamed of the way God made me.... today I'm only on Facebook, and I must say that while some may say my pics are still a bit sexy, they are way more demure than what I had posted before. These days my mouth is more dirty than my pictures LOL...